so long i didnt log in to MB.. bcz busy for study.. and i faced some problem.. i need some advice it's about a guy.. who i having a crush on him. he's my senior in school. we met when i was f2 but we didnt talk. just in the same choir group. and we talked when my friend who actually had a crush on him and asked me to talk to him on internet and try to ask what he thinks about her (they are prefect,and he was the head of the prefect ).. and i action..take the task. and added him in my msn list. we started talking, he's friendly and chatty. soon after, we talked a lot.. everyday..until he have to sit for spm and couldn't go online..and we started sms. non stop.. everyday.. from the chatting.. i realized he's sweet, caring , ambitious, intelligent( play guitar,sing very well, good in cooking , good in sports, know magic[actually he did perform to public]), rich , smart, open minded and patient (very! EXTREMELY PATIENT).. and now i know, why many girl go crazy on him. and one of my friend was his ex. and she often told u how sweet he was.. how good he treated her and bla bla bla..and..i had a bad impression on him b4 that, i said he's ugly (yea.he not tat good looking) when i talk with my gang .. and we laugh at his height..not 180cm.. and bla bla bla.. when he asked the student to silent in assembly.. i actually laugh at him with my gang.. we said he look stupid.. well, i have no idea..why i had the thought at that time.. he cheer me up whenever im sad. he good in joking, humorous.. i still remember the funny story he made from all the cartoon characters.. he did call me and play with his guitar and sing .. he show me magic through webcam.. and show me his cute dog when i wanted to see the dog.. he did teach me to be confident , and optimistic.. well, i argue with him tat im not pessimistic but realistic .. he encourage me to slim down(keep telling me im actually good looking..and i should get the attention from people).. lol.. he alwayz be with me when i m trouble or when i dont know what should i do, give me some advise or suggestion .. he know that i wasnt ok through a message. i just tell him every thing.. but he seldom tell his.. he keep things to himself.. when im mad... he will just let me shout at him without any reason .. and at the end.. he joke and cheer me up .. im alwayz too shy to talk to him face to face.. in school and tuition. we met..and i pretend that i dont know him..or didnt see him.. he will walk behind me when i come out from the classroom to toilet (his class was after mine)..i did noticed..he pretended to go to toilet and come after me..and when i just finished my business, i rush back into the class..and he walk back out to the hall.. it look funny.. hahah.. such a perfect guy(for me) , and dont know when.. i fell in love with him.. this year.. things changed.. he went into college, life become stressful and busy.. at the begining. he was still new in college. and he will text me after class or while rest time... soon after.. he got the new life.. we chat in msn. but lesser.. and. we stop sms( his bill was too expensive and the parents started to limit his usage).. i can see he's stress under the pressure from his parents and he's busy for study.. now.. i told myself not to depend on him since we are not in a relationship.. i should get my own life as well.. missing him made me hard to focus in study.. and im trying very hard to forget him.. i dun have the courage to tell him that i have a feeling on him.. i know that im not his cup of tea.. may be he's too friendly and making me have that kind of feeling on him.. it would be impossible such a good guy would like a girl like me.. i was trying very hard to stop spilling everything to him ( might be very annoying) and talk less to him.. and i think it help him to feel bettter.. cause he doesnt try to talk to me.. though i didnt talk to him for 1 week... it did hurt to do that.. it may good for me and him.. but.. i dunno how to get to forget him faster.. though i stop talking to him.. but.. keep missing him.. i did tell him all about his ex.. which is my friend (diff class but still read her blog from time to time, and she seem not really ok in relationship).. he seem still care about her, he asked why..what happen.. is she ok.. and he called her on her birthday (their share the same birthday but diff year) ..and i give her facebook add to him..ask him to talk to her..and he did ... but i dont how things going on... and this made me to convince myself that he really take me as friend..the norm 1.. and when he told me that there's a girl having a crush on him.. and i keep on ask him about her..and how pretty she is and hot .. hoping that would help me to forget him too.. i really should focus on my study since nothing will happen in between us.. and the exam is around the corner..... S.O.S!